Your smile.

2009-08-21T06:47:00.001-07:00

Find me at ...
http://twohandlebars ...... ( fill in the blanks )

2009-08-17T06:12:00.000-07:00

Poa sucks like crazy, Easy is easy, but when it comes to the later part,
it totally sucks like hell.
Seriously.
And art is stressing me again. Sigh.
Drop / continue? my drawings sucks to the core.
Shit, zzz.

I dont want this emotion to show.

2009-08-15T06:30:00.000-07:00

Breaking the hold of the gaze, I let go of reality again, and begin to sink back into my thoughts, away from searching eyes.
I try to think back - yesterday, one month ago, six years ago. My memories are vague, as if they were a boring book I once read, a long time ago.
It is I who frowns in protest this time, trying to turn away from the mesmerizing stare, yet it holds me captive, hypnotized almost.

"Think. Think of anything, of everything. Let your thoughts run free, the way you only sometimes allow them to. Are they not all memories? It is because you cannot remember the future, and the present turns into the past with each passing second. We all live in our pasts. Yet you must also learn to live with yours, and not in fear of it."...

---

I leaned my back against the light pole to steady myself as I stood up. My head swirled and I heard ringing in my ears. I looked at my surroundings and realised I had no idea where I was. My heart sunk. How was I going to get home now? I turned from the pole, its light to harsh for my eyes now. I staggered down the street, trying to figure where I was. Where was I? Those three words kept swimming around my head as i continued down the never-ending road..

I stood there with my eyes closed, not thinking of anything, when a picture flooded into my mind. I had never seen it before. It was a city, covered in a layer of what looked like smoke. I gasped and opened my eyes

That's right, I know everything about you, your past, your present and your future.
............

My bones hurts, My head hurts, everywhere.
Will i be back after this long break?

2009-08-14T19:14:00.000-07:00

Havent been posting for quite awhile, (because i used to post daily)
But now, cause of studies and some problems, restrained myself from the computer.
Just to sleep & think & do homework.
So cut the crap,
Yesterday, went to school as normal,
end school, and saw abim & aiyun & alex & reyna & joyce.
We all took the same bus, Abim, Aiyun & alex,
got down the same stop as i did, and abim was going over to alex's house
which was like, next to my block? haha.
So, i asked them to accompany me to 85 market to get lunch -O-

Alex was nice to help me take my 2 heavy textbooks : )
alright, so i decided to go over to alex's house for awhile too, since Im like going to rot at home,
they played guitar, and i was bored as well -.-
but i got excited when the topic was about ~~~~~~~~ : D
kkk, so we had lunch, they had their fishballs & fish,
while i had my porridge, -.-
then alex had to go to work and threatens to lock me in his house, -.-
then i went home,,,,,,, and slept.
from 4 plus, to 8pm.
And ate dinner & watched "secret bible", it was talking about the other
prophets & Messiah that competes with Jesus, ha.
I got bored & fell asleep, from 9 plus all the way till morning -.-.

No idea why i am tired. Perhaps of the long week. : )
lets hope today will be better....

2009-08-10T06:23:00.000-07:00

Its either, I influence you, Or, you influence me.
There's no way out.

2009-08-09T05:56:00.000-07:00

Awws, Aren't smiley's cute!

So, i was as-sick-as-ever mode today, In church i meant.

Im perfectly fine at home! & even now, maybe cause of air con!

I can smell blood & feel it when i cough every single time la! eeeeks.

Mavis & Grace wanted to come my house in the first place, but they decided not,

which left madeline, Haha, had some chat.

and she lied on elmo the whole time. Can you just bring it home -.-

When i walked home after sending her to bus stop, i heard national anthem,

but i cant be bothered with it. Like duhhhh,

People like me are not honoured to live in Singapore!

I WANT JAPAN...

I totally missed out the NDP celebrations, When i reached home,

Finish! Msg-ed so much today that my phone went flat, Grr. haahah.

Smiley Smiley.

Suddenly remembered, Celibacy is ending in 2 years time.

1 year passed, how fast. :/!

Let's be patient. : )

2009-08-08T19:28:00.000-07:00

Belinda's confused..
why does one change himself/herself to please the opposite party?
Feelings can develop, but...
there's always an extend to doing something right?..

Why dont you just get it?
Making yourself hurt again & again.
No matter how long it is, the longer, the harder.
Give up, Humans are selfish anyway,
Not up to expectations, leave it.
Find better ones.

This sucks,
Give yours up & i will too.

2009-08-08T06:38:00.000-07:00

(Anyway, Pictures are from deviantart.com. )

Oh So sicky chicken Belinda Tan is resting at home today.

I guessed that much happen when im not around.

One made me pissed!

So i woke up at 9, realised that i cant really move properly.

So msged tingjie, martin & joyce say i not coming...........( which was a wrong decision ) .

Then went for bath & went back to sleep,

Woke up & ate porridge, Then slept for half an hr.

Watched shows & slept again. Pig ) : .

And there's another cockroach. my gosh la.

Stop torturing me..

) :

Church tmrwww!. must be well!

2009-08-07T04:56:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS BETTER THAN ANY OTHER DAYS.

ok, so fun. ok. maybe not, not the first part, maybe i was happy till im sick. yay.

i shall not elborate, those who know, shh k ; D .

i hope i'll be alright by tmrw. ) :

stupid weather, stop changing. just stick to hot if u want to be.

Dont be cold all of a sudden.

I find myself besotted

By the desire for your affection

Even though I have feared it for so long

2009-08-06T06:23:00.000-07:00

Happy belated Birthday to Reyna, Kok loong &
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA. !
----------

Didn't really online for the past two days. was busy sleeping at home,
while my ulcer killed most of my appetite. Grr.
School is beginning to be more exciting, every since last week.
(muahahahahahahhaaa).

Lets hope tmrw will be the best of all! August 4th was the worst.
Anyway, thanks for the wishes & prezzies.
Lots loves to all : ) ..
But the best one, wasn't fufilled this year, Next year perhaps.

Every year, i wished for love. This year, I wished for happiness to those around me,
Like, Joyce, Emerson, Reyna, Jingni, tiff, maddie... loads.
esp. smiley. tahawahamuaha.

Syf lunch tmrw. hope it'll be fun!
I'll not eat i guess. If my ulcer hurts again. T.T

Rebonding,

2009-08-03T06:44:00.000-07:00

Oh, so today was moderate. As usual, school.
but today, i get to see smiley alotzxzx.
so, i failed my chinese test. tahahahahaa.
and, after school, went off to mac with Sister. She ate..
VERY VERY VERY VERY LONG LA.
i waited for her like ~!@#$%^&*.. ) :
then we went to parkway, she bought me book! Love you.
even though i wanted camo more. HAHA. X) .

Then went to look for my mum.
We went to buy.. BOXERS... : D
hehehe, so i bought like a few. k .
then went to the salon. waited and my mum finished earlier than me.
Mine was like, wait v. Long!!
but the outcome was " super straight. & my fringe is thin " .
Im gonna be laughed at tmrw. but its okay! :D

So, can i wash hair or not? .

And the big day is tmrw. sheesh.

Pulau ubin!

2009-08-02T05:43:00.000-07:00

Had a Sunday Afternoon & evening at Pulau ubin.

Ok, i miss that place. the last time i went in was chinese new year.

So, It doesn't seem that anything changed.. Same since the day i was born : D.

heard they're building a resort on the island. wait, its done..

So, i did my homework there. Im so guai.

And i was planning what to do later on at home. so i remembered to clean my room!.

NOW ITS clean!!!!

partially. hahaha. i mopped & sweeped the floor! its smooth now.

Im so happy.

2 more days. ah ) : ..

My face is ugly in all the picture. so caution..

Cockroaches sucks

2009-08-01T13:03:00.000-07:00

Im back to blogging about my daily life, i think there's much more things out there
than anime. So im gonna come back and tell you'll about my interesting life!

Today was church as usual, sat is hyper,
so emmanuel did well today, for games. Keep it up.
And then, today celebrated birthday for those in august.
So all of them already thought of what they were gonna wish for when i haven't!
k, im on 4th august, kokloong on 5th, clara on 6th. LOL.
Mavis is like, 31st. Big gap, but still love you.

So had dinner with faithians, was fun.
Proceeded home with emerson & patrick, yea, i forgot my wallet -.-
so i needed them to pay for my trip.
And emerson passed me my birthday Gift. aww. : D
the card made me laugh.
And then, i was happily at home.. till.. 12 ++ midnight..

this was what happened..
I was using my comp happily.. Out of a sudden, something went pass me
on the floor, of course, i thought it was insect.
BUT its very big. And i got scared, so i on the lights.
After half an hour, It SHOWED ITSELF.
A BIG COCKROACH..
flyable & harmable.
so i told emer i would post about this..
Then, i freaked out as it explores around my house, it first climbed into my brother's bag
and then the back of my wardrobe. Then my wall,
It climbed so many rounds, and i called emer, cause i was scared.
And i cried on phone ( when he thinks im laughing ) .
So the cockroach started showing off his flying abilities, and eventually
i woke my brother up..

He got angry and went back to sleep, so i evacuated my room and left him asleep there with the cockroach.
Half an hour later, he came out.. saying the cockroach climbed on his nose.
Which made me & emer laughed. then he got scared and slept at the living room.
so, the big and fat cockroach managed to squeeze thru my door and went to the living room.
Guess it had so much fun, banging my wall.
So my bro took the news paper and chased the cockroach,
and it died!!!!!!
after stepping it 81 times under the newspaper!
i was like so happy!
by that time, it was close to 3am..
Emer went to bed around 2.50am.. really thanks yea!

So, my bro & I weren't really convinced the cockroach is dead, so we went to our room and investigate. ( :
and we cleaned our bed. with a duster. wooo.
Im so gonna mop my room tommorow.

Its 4.14am. I think im turning in soon.
Ciaos. Longest post? : D

2009-07-31T08:35:00.000-07:00

Worse day of my life, Really.
i dont wanna rant it out to anyone. Grr : )
i shouted at derrick today, im feeling guilty.

so long since i had a long post.
should i have one now? hahaa : D
and yes, i totally smashed my notebook today
its useless la.
seriously, studying so hard, and yet, understanding nothing, when will my brain work?
hate it man.

but still need study..
so i bought a new note book. yea.
hope the next time i will pass.
Pray for me.

2009-07-30T03:03:00.000-07:00

Is it weird?
Feel depressed outside,
but inside, im kinda feeling blissful, No idea kkxx.

Maybe, its just...
Yea, it might just be.

Smiley, Smiled.
why am i , thinking about it. arghhh.

My mind betrays me the most.

2009-07-29T05:45:00.000-07:00

あなたは私に直接何を提供
最後の時間を笑顔で
はとてもきれいだった
それが私の涙への道を与えた

確実に、その日
2人の愛に触れた

私たちはお互いを求める
いつでも自分自身を忘れました
他のを発見し、それぞれで最後に
結果、私たちを待っているので、どんなことがあります

それは何もの
運命

ララララララララララ
ララララララララララ

あなたのために設定して、空で
星優しく私に輝いている

滞在私の側は、私の愛で
時間をかけて横断して形状を変更する
おわかりですか？私たちはまだ見ている未来
このような遺跡はこちら

滞在私の側は、私の愛で
時間をかけて横断して形状を変更する
私たちはまだ見ている未来
遺跡はこちら

私を信用し、私の愛
あなたが私の中で暮らす
だからよ決して
と言う場合にさようなら

確実に、その日
2人の愛に触れた

2009-07-28T07:21:00.001-07:00

Wearing it, doesn't have the same warmth anymore.
Thinking, Doesn't give the same reaction anymore.
Same Goes to loving, it gives a opposite effect,
hey, i dont want this result either.

Retardation..

2009-07-27T04:07:00.000-07:00

Note to self :
-Chinese test.
Maths homework..
Chinese homework.

Chinese need alot of memorising.

&, my phone alarm rang in class today. LOL
followed by reyna.
:x

2009-07-26T04:32:00.001-07:00

Hmmhmmmhmmm, Im thinking.
Real hard. Thinking.
If you're curious, ask me, but i wont tell you anyway.
this is real crap.

Gotta go Muggingggg for chemistry later,
No more Zero plzz,

I need a best friend, I need someone for advices (anyone can)
as long as they're part of this world.
Hehe, just joking.
im just bored.

---
Emer showed me a very funny conversation!
It made me happy for a moment....
but .... the person that said that SPOILED EVERYTHING.
OHMIGOSH...
yuckkz

2009-07-25T19:13:00.000-07:00

I love me bed now,
no pinky pinky, now flowery flowery.
(Hundred of hearts)

2009-07-23T06:01:00.000-07:00

Bla. The three test almost killed me today.
Mrs Chan Hit me on the head during the test. LOL
And my history, off topic! T.T

Im HAVING DEPRESSION.
I'VE SEEN A DOCTOR.
IM NOT CURABLE

2009-07-22T06:37:00.000-07:00

Alright, so Im SUPER random today,
seems like i have LOADS of time, but i got 3 test tmr!!!!
anyway i studied and hope by tmr morning it will still be in my mind.
Last three lessons are test T.T

(2007)

I hate this ) :

I know, Suzune-kun face is too big -.-

OH NO. I JUST READ SHUGO CHARA'S MANGA,

AMU LIKE IKUTO IN THE END?!

OMG LA. TADASE IS BETTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!

i hope the ending will be like SO different please!

2009-07-20T04:55:00.000-07:00

Current desktop bg. How cute.

Alright, so i was studying earlier, and i fell asleep. how dumb -.-

3 test on thursday, one on wed & one on fri.

nehhh.

I DONT LIKE YOU ANYMORE! * JUMPS FOR JOY *

Back to the first, such a long time ago.. : ) .

WEIZHEN! CHEER UP OK.

can you that you real sad/disappointed/angry today.

: )

Cheer ups and hope to see your cheerful smile & laughter tmrw. : )

Bible verse for you :

1 Thessalonians 5: 16

Be joyful always; 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

2009-07-18T20:23:00.001-07:00

A short short poetry(?) perhaps. before i leave for church : )

Beautiful, Tragedy.

‘I never told you,’ you whisper like the evanescent lyrics to a song I can’t replay.
‘That I found it as beautiful and irreplaceable as you.’
I want to hold you. I want to catch your words and lock them in a place where they never fade, where you’re always smiling.
Instead I reach out to curl my hand around the shell you gave me, the one I’d placed around my neck since then,
it takes me a moment to realize you’re no longer buying time.I smile as I try to fight back the tears.
‘You could’ve told me one day. It didn’t have to be now.’
You close your eyes and turn your face away from me.
Not wanting me to see you cry.

I’ve become familiar with the cracks and lines of the ground because
I can no longer bear to look at the sky blue of your eyes.
I’ve been an odd number for a while. I’m no one’s star.
At night I try and look for the sun, in a shirt that no longer smells like you,
because I once said all you had to do was look closer.
I lied.

All I see is the moon.

2009-07-18T09:46:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking, what's not real will never be,
It belongs to fantasy land.
I hope, one day, i get to go there though.. :)
listening to jap songs doesnt make me weird,
understanding doesnt either.

Dont insult my genre of songs.
And the shows i watch.
Its not wrong to like anime ) :
or is it?

2009-07-18T09:05:00.000-07:00

There's no such thing as coincidence, only necessity.

I think, Kenneth's Gonna hate my blog now and never visit ever again.
I took like 3 hrs to sort everything out. Busy editing in photoshop,
blogger, photobucket. and mixpod.
and yes, no more tagboard. who cares bout your comments anyway!
all i will talk about is ANIMEANIMEANIME. teeheehee

I HAD NO TIME FOR MY SHUGO CHARA. NEVERMIND, IM GONNA WATCH IT NOW.
and my KAMICHAMA KARIN CHU MANGA. HMPH.
stupid blogger.

2009-07-17T11:28:00.000-07:00

oh yes, i want manga's too.
Kamichama karin chu's plz. ty.
its $50 + ) :
mail ordered & shipping from overseas. AWW.
someone plzzzzzzzzzzz.

2009-07-17T07:07:00.000-07:00

Completed :
Cardcaptor sakura & movie 1 and 2. ( June Holidays Finished, 70 Episodes)
Matantei Loki Ragnarok.( July 16 Finished, 26 episodes)
Happiness! ( June Holiday Finished, 12 episodes)
Itazura Na Kiss. ( 2008 Finished, 25 episodes)
Special A. ( June holidays finished, 26 episodes)
Kamichama Karin. ( 2008 finished, 26 episodes)
Shugo Chara ( June holidays finished, Within a Day, 51 episodes)
Inuyasha ( 2007 Finished, 167 episodes, 4 movies)
School Days (June holidays finished, 12 episodes)

OnGoing/ Haven complete :
Shugo Chara Doki! (currently episode 40/40)
Gift : Eternal Rainbow ( Episode 4/12)
Suzuka. (episode 12/26)
True Tears. ( 2/13)
Ouran High school host club ( 14/26 )
Myself ; Yourself ( 6/13 )

Nehhh, many episodes one i can finish, Little ones i cant.
Some endings really sucks.
I miss holidays, i can stay up till 7am to watch and sleep and wake up a few hrs later to watch again. Oh man..

2009-07-16T23:12:00.000-07:00

Only birthday wish :

- SOMEONE BRING ME GO STRAIGHTEN MY HAIR

PLZPLZPLZPLZ

2009-07-16T05:00:00.000-07:00

Ok, its screwed, my oh-so-perfect two days.
Work was fine, Homed and ate :
speg,
one plate of veg,
one plate of sausage.
one pack of dessert, Soursop.

Sigh.

2009-07-15T07:25:00.000-07:00

Oh, there's work tmr.
How boring. What a perfect afternoon.
What a good day to " rest " .
hopefully friday will be a good rest day. dont try to spoil my day, thanks.

2009-07-14T05:24:00.000-07:00

When i change it, it means that i've forgotten.
It only makes me sadder when i saw it. freak.

2009-07-13T06:01:00.000-07:00

Homework-ed for 2 hours.

First time eh. How tiring,

Poa, Emaths, Chem & Chinese.

2 Done, Poa stuck, Chem Stuck.

I feel damn lousy. hahahaaaaaaaaa.

More worse, its adding pain..
How i hope one day i bang onto a wall and forget everything.

dang it. :/

This world is weird, That makes me weird. and you too.
This post is pure crap. zzzz.

2009-07-11T07:55:00.000-07:00

Read thru, This is so stupid.
it's just like two stars that made promises together and yet they never met
or forgotten.

2009-07-09T04:32:00.000-07:00

Chopsticks Chopsticks,
I want Green chopsticks,
I want Green milk,
Green Pie,
Green Babies,
Green Mummies,
Green houses,
Green elevator,
Green Computers.
Green disc,
Green Friends
Green Cups,
Green Comb,
Green Joyce,
Green Emerson,
Green xueqin
Green Crystal.

GIMME GREEN.

2009-07-05T08:18:00.000-07:00

Seriously, im getting pissed with my body figure,
shape, size, waist, butt. EVERYTHING ) :

im getting fatter.
damn.

2009-07-04T10:16:00.000-07:00

Today got new episode of Shugo chara DOKI! :3
belinda happy.
but sad.

mixed feelings. woooo.

2009-07-04T06:01:00.000-07:00

What's the difference between forgetting you or not forgetting?
Its the same. Not trying to make things worse, or maybe, stirring trouble,
the fact is that, this feeling SUCKS.
------------

teeheehee. Anime.
Goodbye, Me.
Hello, You.
-

Anyway, I'll accept the truth.

2009-07-03T04:57:00.000-07:00

Bring me to that special place : )
-

Teeheeheee, Monday no school = SUNDAY SLEEP LATE. = ANIME. = BELINDA HAPPY.

So, Feon, Aiyun, Anita & yanyi came to my place today.
i was enjoying my anime while some of them enjoyed camwhoring.
: P

2009-07-02T06:39:00.000-07:00

I realised, I cant control my temper.
Maybe no one realised, but my eyesight, is worsening everyday.
Not the degree though. and my eye always roll suddenly, making me cant see,
Ohnonono, Will i get blind?

Someone Guide me k, When that day comes.
-

I want my daughters to be either named,
-Rima,
-Mikii!
- Jacee!
-Rebecca(?)
-Renee. : D

Son... ( i've got no ideas )
-----

This, is decided by both me & my husband next time, so he needs to approve.
I just love Jap's name ok.

2009-06-30T06:06:00.000-07:00

i weigh, 250 pounds
and stands at 2.5m tall.

2009-06-26T10:03:00.000-07:00

Planning for my life already, My future.
Of course, aiming for the best, ( Might get disappointed, who knows. )
but, Im Entrusting my Life in God's hand : D

Interactive Media Design, 17 pts.
Here i come : )
Then, army(?)
Probably. : ) Get a diploma first. teeheehee.

2009-06-25T12:47:00.000-07:00

Jun Yamamoto from Special A !!!

kawaiii desu!!! : D : D .

(the most top top top guy! )

Isn't he cute? AWWW.

&&, had stomachache today ) :

wonders how tmrw will be like. teeheehee.

2009-06-24T23:00:00.001-07:00

How weird, after watching shugo chara, i find other animes boring -.-
Even those that are new to me. NUUU.
whats happening ) :

LOTTA LOVE LOTTA LOVE.
oh, please have season 3 ._.

2009-06-22T04:44:00.000-07:00

She sits alone,A single tear
Stuck halfway Down her cheek,
She holds his picture
In her fragile hands,As a second tear
Breaks free and Rushes to meet the first,
The two merge As she drops the frame,
They race towards Her chin,Where they cling
For a moment,The frame crashes
On the floor, Shattering the glass
And distorting his face,As she stands,
The tears fall from Her chin And land on the
Broken, Shattered frame,Without looking back,
She steps outside,
Into the sun ...

---

Blood runs down my face and neck, traveling deep down into the dark abyss of unknown territory. My heart beats rapidly, fluttering almost, like the wings of a butterfly that are trapped in the web of a predator.
I see you looking at me, and my mind already in a perpetual state of confusion, begins to spin ‘round and ‘round, leaving me dizzy and disoriented.
Almost instinctively, my body begins to move towards you, as if there was some gravitational force deep down inside your core that had a vice-like grip on me and would not let go.
I suddenly find myself face to face with you and it’s everything I’ve every dreamed of and more. My breathing starts to quicken, and it becomes somewhat like a tribal dance, following a slow, steady, rhythmic beat.
You hold me, gently, as if I’m a fragile glass doll and you’re terrified of breaking me and having to stay and pick up the broken pieces.
You tell me that it’s over, that there’s no “us” anymore, and my brain just can’t seem to register the words that threaten to make my world come crashing down.
I’m in a state of pure shock and confusion that I can still see your lips moving, but they’re emitting no sound.

Those lips, those lips which I had so lovingly kissed, those lips which had gently brushed across my forehead before telling me goodnight.
Those were the same lips which were betraying me now.
All of a sudden, I felt like a tiny ant, crushed by an invisible force much bigger than I was, and I feared that the damage would be irreparable.
My soul is free and wandering, as I leave my shell to decompose into the ground and never be seen again. There is no blood pulsing through my veins, no steady heartbeat to remind me that I’m still alive.
My heart is shattered in a million pieces, pieces that slowly dig deeper and deeper into my heart, slowly killing it.

You left me in such a fragile state, and as my spirit floats away I think about how my broken mold will not plague me with regrets or attached pain.
I have broken that chains that held me down, that inhibited my development, but they will never find their way on me again.
----

Darkness touches the sky,Another day gone by.
Bottled up inside, all the feelings you choose to hide.
Shadowed memories of broken dreams...
Shattered love stories ripped at the seams.
Unspoken promises led you astray,
spoken dreams taken away.
Set your heart free and allow it to hurt...
If shut off from feeling, than what is life worth?
The risk may be great,the sacrifice real,
still the unspoken promises carry the seal.
And the spoken dreams may be foolish,and still...
There's nothing in life greater
than the love you can feel.

----

i've got a picture in my head, and it's meand you; we are in bed, and we're laughing.flashback to the days we held hands andsang songs we didn't know and pretendedthat this would last forever.
see the tangled webs we weave, hand overfist over head, tattered lies and faded silkand i-don't-know-who-to-trusts. we triedso hard and made it this far and i'm not aquitter despite everyone who saysotherwise and i promise i'm not giving up.i don't know where to turn and who toturn to or where i should place the trustthat people take and break and smile withbarbed words and acid lips and handgrenades.
i see the sun but i cannot feel it, i hearyour words but cannot speak. i hide behind this smile and pretend thisdoesn't hurt, pretend i cannot cry andi swear that this time, i promise, i won't give up.
see the webs the lies the crippled brokenties, see the horror see the fear see theangel standing here. see my pain see mytears hear the screaming in your ear. i tryi cry i die i lie i break a little more inside each time you tell me something's wrong,i pretend i do i swear it i'll be okay butone day the pretending will not make mebetter will not mend the tears will not keep me sane and i promise i won't let you see it.

i'm not laughing anymore.

-----

As I lay in bed
Awake at night
I let my mind go
My thougts run free
I remember the good times
But mostly the bad
Then the tears come
Leaving streaks of salt
Down my face
I remember laughing and smiling With you
Now all I know is tears and crying Without you
This is what happens
When I lay in bed
Awake at night
And let my mind go
And my thoughts run free

--

My nowhere home cries to me
Insulting my tired tears
I am shamed

Delluded memories scratch
Tearing at my fading love
I am breathless

Every reality in me
Morphs into sickly pain
I am lost

But knowledge grown from seeds of time
And the light of pure humanity
Shine in me
I am strong I am me I have hope

2009-06-21T22:37:00.001-07:00

On phone,

Chingching : Have you forgotten it all? Every single thing, Answer me will you ?

Daniel : -silence-
.

Put this situation in your own shoes. Imagine that you are Chingching, How will you feel? : )

2009-06-21T04:16:00.000-07:00

My life's back to normal again.
One. Zero. O. Five.
comeon, its gone.

Eating alot again. .

2009-06-20T06:43:00.000-07:00

坐在这角落心里
很多话想说
我和你的错
就是舍不得放手
伤害你的我
早就应该让你自由
知道我以后
需要一直往前走
也许是越在乎
越会彼此的伤害
这样的爱情
又算是什么

爱不在
应该让自己从回忆中离开
爱不在
我们都已不存在彼此未来
有时候
对爱有太深太
多倚赖好像
你失去在这世界
还能够独单的自由

是曾经有的梦
现在只剩一场空
心里好多疑问
你忘了你的承诺
伤了自已也没有用
眼泪无言的流下来
迟早还是要面对
这段感情的伤痛

是因为越在乎
给彼此伤害更多
有了距离以后
看不透的你和我

爱不在
应该让自己从回忆中离开
爱不在
我们都已不存在彼此未来
有时候对你
还是会有关怀
可是心里已经太明白
不是爱

爱不在
应该让自己从回忆中离开
爱不在
我们都已不存在彼此未来
有时候不管对爱有多少的倚赖
就算再不愿意再伤心
我明白
我们只能放手
爱不在...................

: ) RANDOMS!

2009-06-18T11:41:00.000-07:00

waiting for anime to load. BORING!

Gonna sleep late tonight again. perhaps. : ) ...

Feeling better, Perhaps too. : ) ....

ohwell. Tmr will be a better day..

should i change to this kind of specs? : D

2009-06-18T05:48:00.000-07:00

I need a blog to talk to.
Humans doesnt help at all. Neither does blog, but who cares.
At least it doesnt give me comments that saddens me.
Worse, Day, Ever.

2009-06-17T08:01:00.000-07:00

Lighter weights.

2009-06-14T08:49:00.000-07:00

Just to inform you, this following post is gonna be very hurtful for most of your eyes
cause i've gotten a feeling that not alot of you will like it. : )
so, if you dont wanna see. please kinda wait till a few days later and visit this website again. : D

AND HOR, I VERY SAD SIA, I HEARD MY ANIME NO SEASON 2.
DAMN SHAG ONE SIA T.T
WHEN I WAS SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.

ok. so my all time favourite anime is ...........
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ITAZURA NA KISS!!!!!!!!!

emer's addicted to it too. : P .

On, ROMANCE!!!!

2ndly....

Kamichama Karin!

Oh, this show just simply rocks. even though the starting is screwed ; )

I love the story line. ( kenneth sucks, he says it sucks)

On, Godforms, Transformation, action. ROMANCE...

anyway! more pictures!

(DONT THE GUY LOOK CUTE? )

THEY LOOK SO CUTE....

( they are not getting married, it's just they transformed form )

Oh, this is from the manga season 2 i think : /

kazune look so hot here, karin looks so cute. : >

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And, !

HAPPINESS!

Watched this not long ago, haven finish : )

but loving it.

(on , magic, romance )

---

and, INUYASHA. but, no picture. : P

突然好想你

2009-06-11T06:34:00.000-07:00

Pissed off with some stuff today. But overall.
Its ok. Someone cheered me up. somehow. Or am i thinking too much?!
Teeheehee -.-

Ok. Let me Write a story, and YOU read it! : D
---

Cast :
Kat ( I )
Benedict ( Kat's Boyfriend )
Jacee ( Friend )
Marcus ( Friend )
Keith ( Friend )
Along the way, there will be random people.

.

Every once in a while, I will dwell back upon what happened, It all seems like yesterday, the memories are still etched Vividly in my tiny pea sized brain. Guess that's the only thing that fits.

Thank God that Im still with my beloved Boyfriend, Benedict. Yup, We've been dating for 6 years. Back to the story,
(5 years ago )
Which was, 5 years ago. I had this "best" Friend, Jacee. She was popular with boys, All the guys will go bonkers seeing her. The worse thing that made me Fume up was that, SHE WAS TRYING TO GET CLOSE TO MY BOYFRIEND, flirting and all that!
One day i thought, I am going to go all truthy to her that she's Flirting around too much!
But of course, I believed in Benedict, He's such a sweetie, as and when Jacee went to find him, he would just answer, and come to me instead. We've gone through so much in this short span of 1 year being together.
Oh yes, Did i mention? My Two other Guy friends, Marcus and Keith Are way crazy over Jacee, Its as though she's a top model, celeb or something. I just dont get it, There are so many other Pretty Hot Hot girls out there. Why Jacee? Why her? Why my BEST friend? Why does she show off to me SO SO MUCH on the number of guys chasing her? It makes no sense, I can't talk to my boyfriend about this, He'll think too much again. Yes, Couples should be Truthful and open about anything, But this is RIDICULOUS on How or WHY i am feeling this way about Jacee. Crap!

Let me tell you how much Keith and Marcus did for Jacee, AND ITS NOT ONLY THEM.
K, Starting with Keith, When Jacee's bored, Keith could just skip his Sports meeting and go over to Jacee's Apartment Accompaning her, heard that they did something together... With Jacee style, Its common, And Keith has NO idea how to cook, Yet when Jacee said she love guys who can cook, HE IMMEDIATELY dialed up a Community centre and Sighed up for Cooking class!Jacee was just laughing her ass off when she told me this, and i Laughed along, How could one sacrifice so much for someone that doesn't even have the same feeling towards him? WithOut fail, Valentine's, Jacee's Birthday, National day, Mooncake festival, Christmas, New year, there will be gifts costing a bomb just for JACEE.....

Bout Marcus, He's aggressive. Likely... when he went over to her apartment, Something already happened too? Im hoping that they'll get aids. But i think that, Marcus has a chance to win Jacee's heart, He's cute, He can cook(Chef), He's smart, He's Talented(Piano, Guitar, Drum),Rich(Father owns 5 lands in Regions of Europe), An ideal boyfriend to all woman.

All i felt was Jealousy, How can one go so Crazy for a girl? especially when I AM better than Jacee, IN MANY WAYS. I can study, Im good in sports, Im musically talented, I do housework. Guess benedict's Lucky? (Smiley). Seeing so many Useless guys flirting around with her, A tiny little bit of jealousy is hard to escape from. But my Boyfriend.. Through this one year, He has shown me, what true love's all about, I Love him to the Max!

(4 years ago )
Finally, One day, Benedict saw through me, He's one, who truely understands and cares for me, Nothing could escape from his eyes. I Opened up to him on how i was feeling, my first instinct of his reaction would be " why do u even care about other guys when you already have me ? ", but no, his words touched me.. " No matter how much you look at others guy, Even if you feel like being with them, Even if you have lost this feeling that we once had, I Just want to tell you, I'll wait for you, Till i am truely, the only Man in your eyes. " ...

From that moment, I felt convinced, That God Put benedict into my life, has a purpose, God Sended him to change my life, my thinking, my ways.
Without hesistation, I Hugged Benedict, he was all i wanted, Afterall. And yes, I muttered....
" I will never let you go. So, Stupid, Dont ever let me go too ".
"I promise, i won't. " .
It all just feels so blissful.

Back to Now,
Jacee's currently Single, awaiting for her right one, Seem so long since i've talked to her.
I've lost a friend, But im better off without her.
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Dumb ending, BUT WHO CARES. i am not born to be a Writer! :D

Never Believe me.

2009-06-10T07:55:00.001-07:00

Just a random picture.

A long lost friend just msged me,

And, we had so much to catch up on, but something's missing,

And i made my friend sad & pissed.

2009-06-09T11:29:00.003-07:00

Drained. Getting weaker daily. Again, its back.
I wonder what's the cause this time round.
if Only, i had someone to talk to now.

2009-06-08T09:18:00.001-07:00

How i wish, Life's just a fantasy,
No worries, no sadness, no jealousy , no hatred, no bitterness, no sicknesses, No curses.
I would rather be someone that existed in someone's heart but not in reality.
I rather be fake, I rather that i've not even landed here. Why can't i be famous in a way, where no one truely knows me? In a way that, Im not even real?
Worrying just makes me feel, Sad.
Sadness just makes me feel, Lonely.
Loneliness just makes me feel..

IF only, i've never existed.
I know i have been because God has a plan for me.
I know, dont tell me that, But, That's just what im Hoping.

I want to, Love.
Just like how those people did,
I want to fight, like how they do,
I want to slap, like how they slap,
I want to be hugged, Like how they hug,
I want to get married, Like how they got married,
I want to have a child, Like how they got one.

But hey, this is just crap and fantasy.
Its never gonna be real.
Because I AM real.

why not trying to pinch me?

2009-06-08T03:22:00.000-07:00

So, what am i suppose to do?

Leave my hair there? I truely regretted.

Now i've gotta tie a bun to school. If not, REMINDS ME SOMEONE.

Cut Short / Rebond / Leave it ? :/

Im confused.

Now :

Before :

------

Short hair

(SWOLLEN EYES)

(ACTCUTE!!)

(FRIGGING LONG HAIR)

(FRIGGING SHORT)

----

Celeb's hairstyle!

THIS IS PRETTY!!!

THIS IS PRETTY TOO

2009-06-07T10:31:00.000-07:00

Im freaking 52 kg. OMG
no wonder i look so fat when i tried on the clothes.
Maddie Came into my changing room. OOOO.
She loves me and I Loves her!
LOVE ME FOR SAYING SO SO SO MUCH. HAHAHAHA.
(LAUGHS LIKE MAD)

OK. NO MORE SUBWAY.
IM GETTING FAT.

AND NO MORE SAYING SO SO SO MUCH.
its making me HYPER!

BY THE END OF JUNE : 49 KG.
TIME FOR GYM, JOGS AND MORE MORE MORE EXCERCISE.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2009-06-07T08:21:00.000-07:00

How does it feel tofrown? ( :
my Hair SUCKS, im like so gonna stay home ok ):
but got work tmr. Suckyyy.
People will really start calling me aunty ):
sadsad. k. This sucks.
Im the ugliest 16's (:
----

Even when I'm not giving enough
And I'm taking too much
You're still there for me
Even when I got nothing at all
And I'm ready to fall
You're still there for me..

Even when I can't be there for you
You're always there for me....

--

Guess that's TRUE? Teehee.

2009-06-06T11:11:00.001-07:00

So boring, 2 am .
Guess im sleeping soon. Once i finish my anime : )
Nighty Night world.
(PANDA EYES DONT COME OUT PLZXXZ ) ):

2009-06-05T13:27:00.000-07:00

Its, 4.27am.. ):
i cant sleep. i ...

2009-06-03T19:57:00.000-07:00

It feels like, something's missing already.
Shall start counting how many cows went over to the yard already.
There's so many to go. : )

------[edit] : )
K, so back from work like yea, got scolded, and stuff.
No one to talk to this time, PHONE NO MONEY. how pathetic.
k, then went home, Kl and Johnson came..
And yea, took bag, Tmr's Kl's turn ):
aww.

2009-06-03T04:57:00.000-07:00

Hey, time to appreciate two brothers in my life. so sad. they lost half of their hair. ):

sarcarsm.

LKL!

I know I know, i make you pissed at times. Well, we used to be close werent we?

I remember, When i just came church, you were that MEANIE that asked JOJO to call me AUNTIE! i wont forget! not after 2 years! NONO : )

oh, takecare in army ok. No matter what obstacles or temptations that come in your way,

Pray and Seek the Lord ok ; )

Hope to see you soon after 2 weeks! AND EVERY SINGLE WEEKS! :DD

Thanks for everything! esp.. youknow. HA.

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KELVINCAI!

Guess After you go TMR.. Not alot of encouragement that will come in already.

Guess so? : ) and jokes. ok, i hate jokes. HAHHAA. crap. alright, serious alr.

takecare alright, Like what i said to Kl, Anything, Seek God first : )

And, I HAVE SO MANY OF UR UNGLAMS! WOOO.

ok. crap. :D JUST TAKECARE LA.

appreciate what you've done for me, what you've talked to me,

all the care and concern that you've given me as a big big brother.

: )

2009-06-01T20:42:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday!!

(P.S/ this is FRIENDSHIP's day picture : ) )

2009-06-01T08:47:00.001-07:00

I've lost my trust in you. Totally.
Get lost. Both of you.

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see my attitude change towards you. and you'll know it.
No matter how much i want to tell you THAT,
i'll resist. RESIST.
DONT FORCE ME.
---

All except me, all except you. : )
abuchika abuchika! sad.

2009-05-31T06:58:00.000-07:00

How does it feels when, you knew that many are there for you yet you refuse to say anything but the fact is that you want to?
How does it feels when, you've just shouted on someone on the phone?
How does it feels when, Everythings starts to change?

Living in this world full of hatred, Jealousy, Critism, Hurts.
Its never hard to get those answers.
Its never hard to forgive,
But its hard to forget.

It feels so peaceful to lie on the seashore, with the small currents splashing over your physical body that brings nothing but trouble, Imagine it now,
Everything seems to go away, Right?
BUT, How long can this feeling stay?
Troubles come and go, The devil pokes u with his Fork like ALWAYS.
Hearing his sinister laughter, all you feel like doing is taking a red fork back to poke his parts that will hurt him alot and get him out of your life.

Who doesnt want that? The world would be so peaceful, everyone will be lazy again then.
On the other hand, everyone wants to have a peeky smallie look of Heaven,
But, Its not about what you see, but what you believe.

So, lets just forget everything.
Forgive. and forget,
it seems difficult, but hey, its life dude. get over it.

As it's always said, The world revolves around and it plays around with our feelings,
one piece of advice, Move On.
Is it worth it to hold on to something/ someone that seems to have fallen away or lost?
I've not found the answer, but im moving on.

2009-05-29T04:40:00.000-07:00

--------------------------------

you didnt mean to run away did you,you were pushed to the edge you sayyou say we
were the world to you but you let us go and hurt us anyway, how can i forget the
sadness in your eyes, of course i saw you were in pain but you only saw yourself in
the end,we always ended up getting hurt again.how can i forget the cuts and the
wounds i saw on the broken limbs with which you tried to hold me the self
inflicted scars faded through the year,but the memory inside still scolds me,ill
try to forgive you but instincts still hold me back from the kind of trust you
want from me, ill try to believe that you love me truly but part of me thinks you
love only cause your lonley. how can i forgive you without forgettinghow can i
forget without lying as a must, how can i trust without knowing how can i know
without trust?

Found this online, maybe. ha. k . im SO bored.
Emer is busy, no one to audi with D:

and my beloved baobao is in church T.T

2009-05-28T04:02:00.000-07:00

Now im lazy to blog hop.
Seems like changing to Private is getting popular eh.
kk, whatever. lol.
Maybe i shld change mine to private also. CRAP. kkkkkkkkkkk.
Im just being random after trying to get into ppl blog when they DONT ALLOW ME TO.
im so pissed! and i lost my desire to sleep. aww.

Im just sick and weak.
: )

2009-05-26T07:06:00.000-07:00

Dont gossip lah dey!
Finally found SOMEONE that thinks the same way as i does. k. Love you anyway.

It doesnt matter how i feel,
I just love sacrificing.
But, its just too wrong. : )

2009-05-24T06:27:00.000-07:00

Oh, I am SO jealous. ha-ha-ha.
go away

2009-05-23T07:21:00.001-07:00

I feel weird with YOU staring at me with those eyes.

2009-05-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

Dont ask me, unless i tell you so.

Today went out after dance withhhhhhhh,

Feon, Aiyun, Zhiqing, Yanyi, Anita & WengHeng!

Fun uh k. except the part where i waited for 1 hr. (angry!)

So after meeting, proceeded to City hall and yea, started to hunt for Seoul Garden.

We thought this shop beside it was Seoul Garden cause the big big big big

How hilarious.

Then SEOUL GARDEN WAS DAMN EX.

so we decided to hunt for other places.

Chose Yuki Yaki or isit Yaki Yuki? -.- ( ps. cant rmb. )

Yea, before that,

Something happened when this guy with earphones came asking zhiqing for her number

then zhiqing said ask for aiyun's.

Then that guy came back and ask for Feon's number

and i did smth damn bad.

I 'LOL' like. OMGOSH -.-

Imagine my reaction is someone asked me for my number. HAHA.

k. then we ate and chat, i choked. k -.-

cause of wengheng? i think.

So long since i LAUGHED so much.

and not to mention LOUD. lol.

We sang Birthday song to FEON! (who changed her name to wengheng)

(and wengheng changing to feon )

Yeap, her face was all red, and she believed that we wanted to bash wengheng up,

when we kind of lied to her, cause we wanted to surprise her :P.

Tiring, But Fun :)

so long since im out with friends.

Reached home at 10pm. woots. finally.

Anyway, not all the pictures.

Happy Early Birthday AIAI!

2009-05-20T03:48:00.000-07:00

Bla, stupid. MY RESULTS ARE ..... (fill in the blanks)
---

Anyway. Passed by Weizhen's blog and knew that she's having chicken pox.
Takecare anyway.
and people who are having c.p . DONT SCRATCH.
no matter how itchy :/
Or will end up like ME. I scratched and got a freaking hole on my face -.-
It will be with me till im old. and till i die. perhaps!
:)

How random.

2009-05-20T02:55:00.000-07:00

Prosopagnosia.

bruised shins and cracked spines. i've been trying to align my vertebrae with my wavering mind.
i already forgot what i'm trying to remember with my headaches and blurring visions.
there was once a time when i had memorized your face down to the freckles that
decorated your nose,and i could tell you the exact angle that your eyebrows
madeover ever dark eyes that sparkled grey,
but now all that's faded to that point where ,i don't even know you anymore.

it pains me to remember.the white-noise in my mind when i try to picture your spellbinding
face is deafening. looking for your features in my mind is like
tuning in to a station with static.

and i'm searching for the cracks of claritywhere our frames
break open and i can finally see except there are holes in the picture where you
should be. all this breaking apart is killing me,and it's getting harder to find
a place to hide your image in my rapidly deteriorating mind.

it scares me to know that one day,you'll be a stranger.
all the kisses, embraces and whispers we've shared,will surely be gone
. gone along with your face.just like a feather slipping through my fingers.

there's this sickness in my stomach that's taking hold as i watch my memories
of you float farther away.and it's building in my throat since i see you in everything,
in the afternoon heat that's breaking my spirit,or the sunstreaks that are staining
my eyes,and most of all in the thumpthump that's my overworked heart.
but i don't even know how you look.

i'm going to move away. i'll pack up my heart in brown, broken suitcase and i'll leave.
because i can't stand seeing you when i can't recognise your face.and i can't
stand being here because i'm reminded of the things i can't remember.
and i can't stand loving you if i'm loving a stranger.

don't miss me.
because i'll have no choice but to forget you.

2009-05-19T06:00:00.000-07:00

Today. is. much. better.

except results. yeap.

Ss. zzz.

2009-05-17T10:08:00.000-07:00

I may not be right, i may not be wrong.
whatever that i've done, it may not able to be mend back.
It leaves, a scar.

whatever i've said, it leaves a trace of a broken memory.

----

I dont know what i've done, but i know im done fooling around.
From the start, it has never been easy, why not try it yourself?
Why not, let me leave everything behind?

Im trying my best, so what if i've shed tears, so what?
when i dont show, it doesnt mean im alright,
when i dont show, it doesnt mean i dont need support.
When i dont show, it doesnt mean im not fuming at the top of my head.

Im just thinking, is it so hard to agree?
is it so hard to learn?
is it so hard to follow?
is it so hard to listen?

I've got no answers. If i had, this thoughts are just nothing.
I've thought, so much.
Have you ?

Have you all thought about me?
i've thought about each and everyone of you.
trying to understand each and everyone of you.

But hey. this world is unfair.
Neither am i expecting anything in return.

It seems that the road to leading all of you back into place is far.
Seeing other's unity, but not ours.
Discouraged. Yeap.
But......
None the less. Im not giving up.
I've lost one. & im not gonna lost another.
Trust me.

If only, someone can understand.
---

My whole life is screwed.
Weird feelings.

2009-05-17T09:41:00.000-07:00

Drifting is one thing, staying strong is yet another.
yet am i able to stand firm?

Yet to know, but strongly believe that i will.

-
Just who will i be today without Him?
Forgive me. i know, where i've went wrong.

----

Hey, I've just wrote everything im feeling. so keep your comments to yourself. :D

=====

Anyway, Happy 1 year sister.

2009-05-17T06:25:00.000-07:00

Gossips Gossips and more GOSSIPS.

Seriously, WHATS THE WORLD'S PROBLEM?
Im not pin pointing anyone but reallly lah. stop it.

Not saying that i dont but, STOP INFLUENCING ME.
i DISLIKE gossipers. why GOSSIP? WHY.

GIVE ME A SCIENTIFIC REASON OR EXPLAINATION TO PROVE ME WRONG.

What? ur mouth too itchy and HAVE to talk BAD about someone or HIS or HER FLAWS?
or spreading rumors bout THIS PERSON AND THAT PERSON? like please,

that's those two problem. Joking around is fine but NOT SPREADING IT.
even if you know something, KEEP IT TO YOURSELF LA,

or TEAR UR LIPS OFF.

Romans 1:29

They have become filled with every kind of wickedness,

evil, greed and depravity.

They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice.

They are gossips,

----

If you EVER gossip infront of ME or i OVERHEARD. seriously, u can disappear or go far away from me.
Even if it's about me or ANYONE of my brothers and sisters.

GO FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR AWAY.

Im NOT here to ENTERTAIN or LISTEN to you
GOSSIP. GROW UP

2009-05-17T05:34:00.000-07:00

Get this feeling off me! ARGH.

Belinda eats alot when she's sad.

she just ate : A packet of chicken rice, half a tub of ice cream and 2 plums + one big cup of coke.

so? (:

2009-05-16T05:50:00.000-07:00

I want to be different, i want to help people, who cares about me?
This world is selfish, Come on, lets not be fishmongers. (get it?)
I may be a good listener, but not a good adviser,
Somehow, it pulls me down to let me know how others feel about me,
how unclose i am with them, esp my eg members.
We seem so apart, Im dishearten,
I know i haven't done my Job well, I apologize. Im sorry.
To all my members reading this.
Im sorry.

I want to run to the alter, to catch the fire, To stand in the gap, between the living and the dead.
I want to make the DIFFERENCE.
Belinda, it's time for a change.
And satan, Get LOST, you're not gonna stop me this time.
NOT ANYMORE. nor am i going to be AFRAID of you.

*hops around*

2009-05-14T08:44:00.000-07:00

The first picture is obscene. Gr!

2009-05-13T04:56:00.000-07:00

Tmrw's last paper. Chinese Listening.
going school for like 45 mins and home. waste of time. yea.
Hope i get a very bad tummy upset tmrw morning, dont have to go school nor work.
crap.k.

Phone spoil T.T

When I wake up In the midst of the
night
And stare at the still shining
moon...
I remember when you left
me
And shed a tear.

But I still
hope
Am still hoping
When the sun rises and shines upon my
heart
You open the door,And reappear for
me.

I
promised to share my
dreams with
you..
I promised to wait
for
your return..
Or am I waiting in
vain?
Please
tell me
anything...
Help me reach out to
you..
I am
falling so deeply in love
again...

I miss you so
much
And I want
to
kiss you
again
'Cause when I lay
down
And feel your sweet scent still
in
the
air...
I still feel you
beside
me,
resting your head on my
chest
Even
knowing
you're not there.

Oh love... sweet
dreams..
Can't you help
me..?
'Cause I think
I'm falling in
love..
I'm
falling..

Falling for
you all over
again.

2009-05-10T09:02:00.000-07:00

Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call
You board the train
Heading for tomorrow

I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears, you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore?

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Mmmmm....
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say it isn't so

Ten to five at least we've tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you, whoa...

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on?

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say it isn't so

Miles and miles to go,
Before I can say, before I can lay
My love for you to sleep
Oh darling oh
I've got miles and miles to go,
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again.

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say it isn't so

Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so

If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so.....

2009-05-10T06:17:00.000-07:00

Lesson to be Learned : emotions are bad for your health

I’ve been holding onto this thread,
depending upon it
To lead me through the dark for far too long,
So I let go, watch the darkness unravel before my
eyes
And fear no more

Touching my healed heart, it dawns on me
I guess I didn’t love him after all
Then I smack myself for being so cliché.

SO, Stay happy guys. :)
Toodles.

2009-05-08T06:22:00.000-07:00

So much have changed, Miss so many people. =/
Wonders how i will look in 2 yrs. And how much people will change.
This bothers me. k. :/
Ok, Guess blogger is more interesting perhaps. : )
Misses the whole world.

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180508. I miss you so much.