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You've Just got to know that I'm named Belinda.
I love God ,SHC & Japan. OF course, Bro & Sis in Christ.
I hate all the sadness you've brought upon my life.
But im nice & forgiving, In your dreams.
if both of us are to cry, I want to be the one who cries louder,I want to be the one who takes a longer time to recover.
I want to absorb all the sadness from you..I'm holding on but you've already let go.
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Title:
Date posted: Sunday, May 31, 2009;
Time started: 6:58 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
How does it feels when, you knew that many are there for you yet you refuse to say anything but the fact is that you want to?
How does it feels when, you've just shouted on someone on the phone?
How does it feels when, Everythings starts to change?
Living in this world full of hatred, Jealousy, Critism, Hurts.
Its never hard to get those answers.
Its never hard to forgive,
But its hard to forget.
It feels so peaceful to lie on the seashore, with the small currents splashing over your physical body that brings nothing but trouble, Imagine it now,
Everything seems to go away, Right?
BUT, How long can this feeling stay?
Troubles come and go, The devil pokes u with his Fork like ALWAYS.
Hearing his sinister laughter, all you feel like doing is taking a red fork back to poke his parts that will hurt him alot and get him out of your life.
Who doesnt want that? The world would be so peaceful, everyone will be lazy again then.
On the other hand, everyone wants to have a peeky smallie look of Heaven,
But, Its not about what you see, but what you believe.
So, lets just forget everything.
Forgive. and forget,
it seems difficult, but hey, its life dude. get over it.
As it's always said, The world revolves around and it plays around with our feelings,
one piece of advice, Move On.
Is it worth it to hold on to something/ someone that seems to have fallen away or lost?
I've not found the answer, but im moving on.
Title:
Date posted: Friday, May 29, 2009;
Time started: 4:40 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
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you didnt mean to run away did you,you were pushed to the edge you sayyou say we
were the world to you but you let us go and hurt us anyway, how can i forget the
sadness in your eyes, of course i saw you were in pain but you only saw yourself in
the end,we always ended up getting hurt again.how can i forget the cuts and the
wounds i saw on the broken limbs with which you tried to hold me the self
inflicted scars faded through the year,but the memory inside still scolds me,ill
try to forgive you but instincts still hold me back from the kind of trust you
want from me, ill try to believe that you love me truly but part of me thinks you
love only cause your lonley. how can i forgive you without forgettinghow can i
forget without lying as a must, how can i trust without knowing how can i know
without trust?
Found this online, maybe. ha. k . im SO bored.
Emer is busy, no one to audi with D:
and my beloved baobao is in church T.T
Title:
Date posted: Thursday, May 28, 2009;
Time started: 4:02 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Now im lazy to blog hop.
Seems like changing to Private is getting popular eh.
kk, whatever. lol.
Maybe i shld change mine to private also. CRAP. kkkkkkkkkkk.
Im just being random after trying to get into ppl blog when they DONT ALLOW ME TO.
im so pissed! and i lost my desire to sleep. aww.
Im just sick and weak.
: )
Title:
Date posted: Tuesday, May 26, 2009;
Time started: 7:06 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Dont gossip lah dey!
Finally found SOMEONE that thinks the same way as i does. k. Love you anyway.
It doesnt matter how i feel,
I just love sacrificing.
But, its just too wrong. : )
Title:
Date posted: Sunday, May 24, 2009;
Time started: 6:27 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
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Oh, I am SO jealous. ha-ha-ha.
go away
go away
Title:
Date posted: Saturday, May 23, 2009;
Time started: 7:21 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
I feel weird with YOU staring at me with those eyes.
Title:
Date posted: Friday, May 22, 2009;
Time started: 7:36 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Dont ask me, unless i tell you so.
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Today went out after dance withhhhhhhh,
Feon, Aiyun, Zhiqing, Yanyi, Anita & WengHeng!
Fun uh k. except the part where i waited for 1 hr. (angry!)
k.
So after meeting, proceeded to City hall and yea, started to hunt for Seoul Garden.
We thought this shop beside it was Seoul Garden cause the big big big big
sign in beside it -.-
How hilarious.
Then SEOUL GARDEN WAS DAMN EX.
so we decided to hunt for other places.
Chose Yuki Yaki or isit Yaki Yuki? -.- ( ps. cant rmb. )
Yea, before that,
Something happened when this guy with earphones came asking zhiqing for her number
then zhiqing said ask for aiyun's.
Then that guy came back and ask for Feon's number
and i did smth damn bad.
I 'LOL' like. OMGOSH -.-
Imagine my reaction is someone asked me for my number. HAHA.
k. then we ate and chat, i choked. k -.-
cause of wengheng? i think.
So long since i LAUGHED so much.
and not to mention LOUD. lol.
We sang Birthday song to FEON! (who changed her name to wengheng)
(and wengheng changing to feon )
Yeap, her face was all red, and she believed that we wanted to bash wengheng up,
when we kind of lied to her, cause we wanted to surprise her :P.
Tiring, But Fun :)
so long since im out with friends.
Reached home at 10pm. woots. finally.
Anyway, not all the pictures.
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Happy Early Birthday AIAI!
Title:
Date posted: Wednesday, May 20, 2009;
Time started: 3:48 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Bla, stupid. MY RESULTS ARE ..... (fill in the blanks)
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Anyway. Passed by Weizhen's blog and knew that she's having chicken pox.
Takecare anyway.
and people who are having c.p . DONT SCRATCH.
no matter how itchy :/
Or will end up like ME. I scratched and got a freaking hole on my face -.-
It will be with me till im old. and till i die. perhaps!
:)
How random.
Title:
Date posted: ;
Time started: 2:55 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Prosopagnosia.
bruised shins and cracked spines. i've been trying to align my vertebrae with my wavering mind.
i already forgot what i'm trying to remember with my headaches and blurring visions.
there was once a time when i had memorized your face down to the freckles that
decorated your nose,and i could tell you the exact angle that your eyebrows
madeover ever dark eyes that sparkled grey,
but now all that's faded to that point where ,i don't even know you anymore.
it pains me to remember.the white-noise in my mind when i try to picture your spellbinding
face is deafening. looking for your features in my mind is like
tuning in to a station with static.
and i'm searching for the cracks of claritywhere our frames
break open and i can finally see except there are holes in the picture where you
should be. all this breaking apart is killing me,and it's getting harder to find
a place to hide your image in my rapidly deteriorating mind.
it scares me to know that one day,you'll be a stranger.
all the kisses, embraces and whispers we've shared,will surely be gone
. gone along with your face.just like a feather slipping through my fingers.
there's this sickness in my stomach that's taking hold as i watch my memories
of you float farther away.and it's building in my throat since i see you in everything,
in the afternoon heat that's breaking my spirit,or the sunstreaks that are staining
my eyes,and most of all in the thumpthump that's my overworked heart.
but i don't even know how you look.
i'm going to move away. i'll pack up my heart in brown, broken suitcase and i'll leave.
because i can't stand seeing you when i can't recognise your face.and i can't
stand being here because i'm reminded of the things i can't remember.
and i can't stand loving you if i'm loving a stranger.
don't miss me.
because i'll have no choice but to forget you.
Title:
Date posted: Tuesday, May 19, 2009;
Time started: 6:00 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Today. is. much. better.
except results. yeap.
Ss. zzz.
Title:
Date posted: Sunday, May 17, 2009;
Time started: 10:08 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
I may not be right, i may not be wrong.
whatever that i've done, it may not able to be mend back.
It leaves, a scar.
whatever i've said, it leaves a trace of a broken memory.
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I dont know what i've done, but i know im done fooling around.
From the start, it has never been easy, why not try it yourself?
Why not, let me leave everything behind?
Im trying my best, so what if i've shed tears, so what?
when i dont show, it doesnt mean im alright,
when i dont show, it doesnt mean i dont need support.
When i dont show, it doesnt mean im not fuming at the top of my head.
Im just thinking, is it so hard to agree?
is it so hard to learn?
is it so hard to follow?
is it so hard to listen?
I've got no answers. If i had, this thoughts are just nothing.
I've thought, so much.
Have you ?
Have you all thought about me?
i've thought about each and everyone of you.
trying to understand each and everyone of you.
But hey. this world is unfair.
Neither am i expecting anything in return.
It seems that the road to leading all of you back into place is far.
Seeing other's unity, but not ours.
Discouraged. Yeap.
But......
None the less. Im not giving up.
I've lost one. & im not gonna lost another.
Trust me.
If only, someone can understand.
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My whole life is screwed.
Weird feelings.
Title:
Date posted: ;
Time started: 9:41 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Drifting is one thing, staying strong is yet another.
yet am i able to stand firm?
Yet to know, but strongly believe that i will.
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Just who will i be today without Him?
Forgive me. i know, where i've went wrong.
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Hey, I've just wrote everything im feeling. so keep your comments to yourself. :D
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Anyway, Happy 1 year sister.
Title:
Date posted: ;
Time started: 6:25 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Gossips Gossips and more GOSSIPS.
Seriously, WHATS THE WORLD'S PROBLEM?
Im not pin pointing anyone but reallly lah. stop it.
Not saying that i dont but, STOP INFLUENCING ME.
i DISLIKE gossipers. why GOSSIP? WHY.
GIVE ME A SCIENTIFIC REASON OR EXPLAINATION TO PROVE ME WRONG.
What? ur mouth too itchy and HAVE to talk BAD about someone or HIS or HER FLAWS?
or spreading rumors bout THIS PERSON AND THAT PERSON? like please,
that's those two problem. Joking around is fine but NOT SPREADING IT.
even if you know something, KEEP IT TO YOURSELF LA,
or TEAR UR LIPS OFF.
Romans 1:29
They have become filled with every kind of wickedness,
evil, greed and depravity.
They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice.
They are gossips,
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If you EVER gossip infront of ME or i OVERHEARD. seriously, u can disappear or go far away from me.
Even if it's about me or ANYONE of my brothers and sisters.
GO FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR AWAY.
Im NOT here to ENTERTAIN or LISTEN to you
GOSSIP. GROW UP
Title:
Date posted: ;
Time started: 5:34 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
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Get this feeling off me! ARGH.
Belinda eats alot when she's sad.
she just ate : A packet of chicken rice, half a tub of ice cream and 2 plums + one big cup of coke.
so? (:
Title:
Date posted: Saturday, May 16, 2009;
Time started: 5:50 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
I want to be different, i want to help people, who cares about me?
This world is selfish, Come on, lets not be fishmongers. (get it?)
I may be a good listener, but not a good adviser,
Somehow, it pulls me down to let me know how others feel about me,
how unclose i am with them, esp my eg members.
We seem so apart, Im dishearten,
I know i haven't done my Job well, I apologize. Im sorry.
To all my members reading this.
Im sorry.
I want to run to the alter, to catch the fire, To stand in the gap, between the living and the dead.
I want to make the DIFFERENCE.
Belinda, it's time for a change.
And satan, Get LOST, you're not gonna stop me this time.
NOT ANYMORE. nor am i going to be AFRAID of you.
*hops around*
Title:
Date posted: Thursday, May 14, 2009;
Time started: 8:44 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
The first picture is obscene. Gr!
Title:
Date posted: Wednesday, May 13, 2009;
Time started: 4:56 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Tmrw's last paper. Chinese Listening.
going school for like 45 mins and home. waste of time. yea.
Hope i get a very bad tummy upset tmrw morning, dont have to go school nor work.
crap.k.
Phone spoil T.T
When I wake up In the midst of the
night
And stare at the still shining
moon...
I remember when you left
me
And shed a tear.
But I still
hope
Am still hoping
When the sun rises and shines upon my
heart
You open the door,And reappear for
me.
I
promised to share my
dreams with
you..
I promised to wait
for
your return..
Or am I waiting in
vain?
Please
tell me
anything...
Help me reach out to
you..
I am
falling so deeply in love
again...
I miss you so
much
And I want
to
kiss you
again
'Cause when I lay
down
And feel your sweet scent still
in
the
air...
I still feel you
beside
me,
resting your head on my
chest
Even
knowing
you're not there.
Oh love... sweet
dreams..
Can't you help
me..?
'Cause I think
I'm falling in
love..
I'm
falling..
Falling for
you all over
again.
Title:
Date posted: Sunday, May 10, 2009;
Time started: 9:02 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call
You board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears, you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore?
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Mmmmm....
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say it isn't so
Ten to five at least we've tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you, whoa...
How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on?
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say it isn't so
Miles and miles to go,
Before I can say, before I can lay
My love for you to sleep
Oh darling oh
I've got miles and miles to go,
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again.
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say it isn't so
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so.....
Title:
Date posted: ;
Time started: 6:17 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
Lesson to be Learned : emotions are bad for your health
I’ve been holding onto this thread,
depending upon it
To lead me through the dark for far too long,
So I let go, watch the darkness unravel before my
eyes
And fear no more
Touching my healed heart, it dawns on me
I guess I didn’t love him after all
Then I smack myself for being so cliché.
SO, Stay happy guys. :)
Toodles.
Title:
Date posted: Friday, May 8, 2009;
Time started: 6:22 AM
Posted by: BelindaT.
So much have changed, Miss so many people. =/
Wonders how i will look in 2 yrs. And how much people will change.
This bothers me. k. :/
Ok, Guess blogger is more interesting perhaps. : )
Misses the whole world.
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180508. I miss you so much.