Designer: Yours Truely


You've Just got to know that I'm named Belinda.
I love God ,SHC & Japan. OF course, Bro & Sis in Christ.
I hate all the sadness you've brought upon my life.
But im nice & forgiving, In your dreams.

if both of us are to cry, I want to be the one who cries louder,I want to be the one who takes a longer time to recover.
I want to absorb all the sadness from you..I'm holding on but you've already let go.

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Poa sucks like crazy, Easy is easy, but when it comes to the later part,
it totally sucks like hell.
Seriously.
And art is stressing me again. Sigh.
Drop / continue? my drawings sucks to the core.
Shit, zzz.

Breaking the hold of the gaze, I let go of reality again, and begin to sink back into my thoughts, away from searching eyes.
I try to think back - yesterday, one month ago, six years ago. My memories are vague, as if they were a boring book I once read, a long time ago.
It is I who frowns in protest this time, trying to turn away from the mesmerizing stare, yet it holds me captive, hypnotized almost.

"Think. Think of anything, of everything. Let your thoughts run free, the way you only sometimes allow them to. Are they not all memories? It is because you cannot remember the future, and the present turns into the past with each passing second. We all live in our pasts. Yet you must also learn to live with yours, and not in fear of it."...

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I leaned my back against the light pole to steady myself as I stood up. My head swirled and I heard ringing in my ears. I looked at my surroundings and realised I had no idea where I was. My heart sunk. How was I going to get home now? I turned from the pole, its light to harsh for my eyes now. I staggered down the street, trying to figure where I was. Where was I? Those three words kept swimming around my head as i continued down the never-ending road..

I stood there with my eyes closed, not thinking of anything, when a picture flooded into my mind. I had never seen it before. It was a city, covered in a layer of what looked like smoke. I gasped and opened my eyes

That's right, I know everything about you, your past, your present and your future.
............


My bones hurts, My head hurts, everywhere.
Will i be back after this long break?

Havent been posting for quite awhile, (because i used to post daily)
But now, cause of studies and some problems, restrained myself from the computer.
Just to sleep & think & do homework.
So cut the crap,
Yesterday, went to school as normal,
end school, and saw abim & aiyun & alex & reyna & joyce.
We all took the same bus, Abim, Aiyun & alex,
got down the same stop as i did, and abim was going over to alex's house
which was like, next to my block? haha.
So, i asked them to accompany me to 85 market to get lunch -O-

Alex was nice to help me take my 2 heavy textbooks : )
alright, so i decided to go over to alex's house for awhile too, since Im like going to rot at home,
they played guitar, and i was bored as well -.-
but i got excited when the topic was about ~~~~~~~~ : D
kkk, so we had lunch, they had their fishballs & fish,
while i had my porridge, -.-
then alex had to go to work and threatens to lock me in his house, -.-
then i went home,,,,,,, and slept.
from 4 plus, to 8pm.
And ate dinner & watched "secret bible", it was talking about the other
prophets & Messiah that competes with Jesus, ha.
I got bored & fell asleep, from 9 plus all the way till morning -.-.

No idea why i am tired. Perhaps of the long week. : )
lets hope today will be better....

Its either, I influence you, Or, you influence me.
There's no way out.

Awws, Aren't smiley's cute!

So, i was as-sick-as-ever mode today, In church i meant.

Im perfectly fine at home! & even now, maybe cause of air con!

I can smell blood & feel it when i cough every single time la! eeeeks.

Mavis & Grace wanted to come my house in the first place, but they decided not,

which left madeline, Haha, had some chat.

and she lied on elmo the whole time. Can you just bring it home -.-

When i walked home after sending her to bus stop, i heard national anthem,

but i cant be bothered with it. Like duhhhh,

People like me are not honoured to live in Singapore!

I WANT JAPAN...

I totally missed out the NDP celebrations, When i reached home,

Finish! Msg-ed so much today that my phone went flat, Grr. haahah.

Smiley Smiley.

Suddenly remembered, Celibacy is ending in 2 years time.

1 year passed, how fast. :/!

Let's be patient. : )

Belinda's confused..
why does one change himself/herself to please the opposite party?
Feelings can develop, but...
there's always an extend to doing something right?..

Why dont you just get it?
Making yourself hurt again & again.
No matter how long it is, the longer, the harder.
Give up, Humans are selfish anyway,
Not up to expectations, leave it.
Find better ones.

This sucks,
Give yours up & i will too.

(Anyway, Pictures are from deviantart.com. )

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Oh So sicky chicken Belinda Tan is resting at home today.

I guessed that much happen when im not around.

One made me pissed!

So i woke up at 9, realised that i cant really move properly.

So msged tingjie, martin & joyce say i not coming...........( which was a wrong decision ) .

Then went for bath & went back to sleep,

Woke up & ate porridge, Then slept for half an hr.

Watched shows & slept again. Pig ) : .

And there's another cockroach. my gosh la.

Stop torturing me..

) :

Church tmrwww!. must be well!

TODAY WAS BETTER THAN ANY OTHER DAYS.

ok, so fun. ok. maybe not, not the first part, maybe i was happy till im sick. yay.

i shall not elborate, those who know, shh k ; D .

i hope i'll be alright by tmrw. ) :

stupid weather, stop changing. just stick to hot if u want to be.

Dont be cold all of a sudden.

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I find myself besotted

By the desire for your affection

Even though I have feared it for so long

(c) nooj-deathseeker

Happy belated Birthday to Reyna, Kok loong &
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA. !
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Didn't really online for the past two days. was busy sleeping at home,
while my ulcer killed most of my appetite. Grr.
School is beginning to be more exciting, every since last week.
(muahahahahahahhaaa).

Lets hope tmrw will be the best of all! August 4th was the worst.
Anyway, thanks for the wishes & prezzies.
Lots loves to all : ) ..
But the best one, wasn't fufilled this year, Next year perhaps.

Every year, i wished for love. This year, I wished for happiness to those around me,
Like, Joyce, Emerson, Reyna, Jingni, tiff, maddie... loads.
esp. smiley. tahawahamuaha.

Syf lunch tmrw. hope it'll be fun!
I'll not eat i guess. If my ulcer hurts again. T.T

Oh, so today was moderate. As usual, school.
but today, i get to see smiley alotzxzx.
so, i failed my chinese test. tahahahahaa.
and, after school, went off to mac with Sister. She ate..
VERY VERY VERY VERY LONG LA.
i waited for her like ~!@#$%^&*.. ) :
then we went to parkway, she bought me book! Love you.
even though i wanted camo more. HAHA. X) .

Then went to look for my mum.
We went to buy.. BOXERS... : D
hehehe, so i bought like a few. k .
then went to the salon. waited and my mum finished earlier than me.
Mine was like, wait v. Long!!
but the outcome was " super straight. & my fringe is thin " .
Im gonna be laughed at tmrw. but its okay! :D

So, can i wash hair or not? .

And the big day is tmrw. sheesh.

Had a Sunday Afternoon & evening at Pulau ubin.

Ok, i miss that place. the last time i went in was chinese new year.

So, It doesn't seem that anything changed.. Same since the day i was born : D.

heard they're building a resort on the island. wait, its done..

So, i did my homework there. Im so guai.

And i was planning what to do later on at home. so i remembered to clean my room!.

NOW ITS clean!!!!

partially. hahaha. i mopped & sweeped the floor! its smooth now.

Im so happy.

2 more days. ah ) : ..

My face is ugly in all the picture. so caution..

Im back to blogging about my daily life, i think there's much more things out there
than anime. So im gonna come back and tell you'll about my interesting life!

Today was church as usual, sat is hyper,
so emmanuel did well today, for games. Keep it up.
And then, today celebrated birthday for those in august.
So all of them already thought of what they were gonna wish for when i haven't!
k, im on 4th august, kokloong on 5th, clara on 6th. LOL.
Mavis is like, 31st. Big gap, but still love you.

So had dinner with faithians, was fun.
Proceeded home with emerson & patrick, yea, i forgot my wallet -.-
so i needed them to pay for my trip.
And emerson passed me my birthday Gift. aww. : D
the card made me laugh.
And then, i was happily at home.. till.. 12 ++ midnight..

this was what happened..
I was using my comp happily.. Out of a sudden, something went pass me
on the floor, of course, i thought it was insect.
BUT its very big. And i got scared, so i on the lights.
After half an hour, It SHOWED ITSELF.
A BIG COCKROACH..
flyable & harmable.
so i told emer i would post about this..
Then, i freaked out as it explores around my house, it first climbed into my brother's bag
and then the back of my wardrobe. Then my wall,
It climbed so many rounds, and i called emer, cause i was scared.
And i cried on phone ( when he thinks im laughing ) .
So the cockroach started showing off his flying abilities, and eventually
i woke my brother up..

He got angry and went back to sleep, so i evacuated my room and left him asleep there with the cockroach.
Half an hour later, he came out.. saying the cockroach climbed on his nose.
Which made me & emer laughed. then he got scared and slept at the living room.
so, the big and fat cockroach managed to squeeze thru my door and went to the living room.
Guess it had so much fun, banging my wall.
So my bro took the news paper and chased the cockroach,
and it died!!!!!!
after stepping it 81 times under the newspaper!
i was like so happy!
by that time, it was close to 3am..
Emer went to bed around 2.50am.. really thanks yea!

So, my bro & I weren't really convinced the cockroach is dead, so we went to our room and investigate. ( :
and we cleaned our bed. with a duster. wooo.
Im so gonna mop my room tommorow.

Its 4.14am. I think im turning in soon.
Ciaos. Longest post? : D