Designer: Yours Truely


You've Just got to know that I'm named Belinda.
I love God ,SHC & Japan. OF course, Bro & Sis in Christ.
I hate all the sadness you've brought upon my life.
But im nice & forgiving, In your dreams.

if both of us are to cry, I want to be the one who cries louder,I want to be the one who takes a longer time to recover.
I want to absorb all the sadness from you..I'm holding on but you've already let go.

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Flipped those Pages: May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009

She sits alone,A single tear
Stuck halfway Down her cheek,
She holds his picture
In her fragile hands,As a second tear
Breaks free and Rushes to meet the first,
The two merge As she drops the frame,
They race towards Her chin,Where they cling
For a moment,The frame crashes
On the floor, Shattering the glass
And distorting his face,As she stands,
The tears fall from Her chin And land on the
Broken, Shattered frame,Without looking back,
She steps outside,
Into the sun ...

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Blood runs down my face and neck, traveling deep down into the dark abyss of unknown territory. My heart beats rapidly, fluttering almost, like the wings of a butterfly that are trapped in the web of a predator.
I see you looking at me, and my mind already in a perpetual state of confusion, begins to spin ‘round and ‘round, leaving me dizzy and disoriented.
Almost instinctively, my body begins to move towards you, as if there was some gravitational force deep down inside your core that had a vice-like grip on me and would not let go.
I suddenly find myself face to face with you and it’s everything I’ve every dreamed of and more. My breathing starts to quicken, and it becomes somewhat like a tribal dance, following a slow, steady, rhythmic beat.
You hold me, gently, as if I’m a fragile glass doll and you’re terrified of breaking me and having to stay and pick up the broken pieces.
You tell me that it’s over, that there’s no “us” anymore, and my brain just can’t seem to register the words that threaten to make my world come crashing down.
I’m in a state of pure shock and confusion that I can still see your lips moving, but they’re emitting no sound.

Those lips, those lips which I had so lovingly kissed, those lips which had gently brushed across my forehead before telling me goodnight.
Those were the same lips which were betraying me now.
All of a sudden, I felt like a tiny ant, crushed by an invisible force much bigger than I was, and I feared that the damage would be irreparable.
My soul is free and wandering, as I leave my shell to decompose into the ground and never be seen again. There is no blood pulsing through my veins, no steady heartbeat to remind me that I’m still alive.
My heart is shattered in a million pieces, pieces that slowly dig deeper and deeper into my heart, slowly killing it.

You left me in such a fragile state, and as my spirit floats away I think about how my broken mold will not plague me with regrets or attached pain.
I have broken that chains that held me down, that inhibited my development, but they will never find their way on me again.
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Darkness touches the sky,Another day gone by.
Bottled up inside, all the feelings you choose to hide.
Shadowed memories of broken dreams...
Shattered love stories ripped at the seams.
Unspoken promises led you astray,
spoken dreams taken away.
Set your heart free and allow it to hurt...
If shut off from feeling, than what is life worth?
The risk may be great,the sacrifice real,
still the unspoken promises carry the seal.
And the spoken dreams may be foolish,and still...
There's nothing in life greater
than the love you can feel.

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i've got a picture in my head, and it's meand you; we are in bed, and we're laughing.flashback to the days we held hands andsang songs we didn't know and pretendedthat this would last forever.
see the tangled webs we weave, hand overfist over head, tattered lies and faded silkand i-don't-know-who-to-trusts. we triedso hard and made it this far and i'm not aquitter despite everyone who saysotherwise and i promise i'm not giving up.i don't know where to turn and who toturn to or where i should place the trustthat people take and break and smile withbarbed words and acid lips and handgrenades.
i see the sun but i cannot feel it, i hearyour words but cannot speak. i hide behind this smile and pretend thisdoesn't hurt, pretend i cannot cry andi swear that this time, i promise, i won't give up.
see the webs the lies the crippled brokenties, see the horror see the fear see theangel standing here. see my pain see mytears hear the screaming in your ear. i tryi cry i die i lie i break a little more inside each time you tell me something's wrong,i pretend i do i swear it i'll be okay butone day the pretending will not make mebetter will not mend the tears will not keep me sane and i promise i won't let you see it.

i'm not laughing anymore.

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As I lay in bed
Awake at night
I let my mind go
My thougts run free
I remember the good times
But mostly the bad
Then the tears come
Leaving streaks of salt
Down my face
I remember laughing and smiling With you
Now all I know is tears and crying Without you
This is what happens
When I lay in bed
Awake at night
And let my mind go
And my thoughts run free

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My nowhere home cries to me
Insulting my tired tears
I am shamed

Delluded memories scratch
Tearing at my fading love
I am breathless

Every reality in me
Morphs into sickly pain
I am lost

But knowledge grown from seeds of time
And the light of pure humanity
Shine in me
I am strong I am me I have hope